Why You Hate Writing
December 19, 2022
People say it all the time. Over an upcoming essay, debates over Math versus English, or just an overall declaration. “I hate writing.” That’s totally valid. Writing is hard. It’s complex, it’s annoying, and you have to sit down and just think. Writing is so broad, there are so many forms of expression that fit into one little label. Writing is so many things. But if you realize the potential of your writing, you’ll realize you already like it.
Writing is embarrassing. Putting your real thoughts down, being vulnerable is embarrassing. Having someone reread your words back to you is embarrassing. Especially if you feel like you’re doing it wrong. Writing isn’t really a casual pastime, and when your writing doesn’t match what’s in your head, it’s frustrating. It’s so much easier to push all of that aside and just say it’s not your thing. But here’s what changes everything.
You don’t have to share your writing with anyone. That’s the secret – it’s yours. No one has to see it, no one has to read it, no one has to know it exists. It frees you from every expectation. If no one knows your writing exists, “wrong” and “right” don’t matter, you literally can’t fail. You can misspell words, make up your own words, write gibberish sentences. You can write paragraphs that mean nothing, you can write three words and call it a masterpiece. Forget grammar mistakes, grammar doesn’t have to exist. It’s just you. Whether it’s in the margins of a notebook, on random scraps of paper or in your notes app, find somewhere to write that’s just for you.
Writing is boring. No question about it. When you have to write about “the main theme throughout the chapter” or explain your answer to Part A using specific evidence, of course you dread it. No one wants to write mundane, tedious assignments. You read prompts like that and you’re automatically thinking of writing as work you have to do. When someone else is telling you what to write, when you’re writing for a grade, for a teacher’s approval, it’s not yours. But on your own, you write all the time.
Think about the last time you ranted to a friend over text. Maybe you confessed something that’s been bothering you, or told a story about that weird thing that happened third period. Open your notes app. What have you written? Lists? Reminders? Maybe your own private thoughts? Chances are, you write on your own all the time. All of it counts. It’s your writing, and no matter the format, it was probably entertaining. Instagram captions, comments on someone’s post, scribbled writing in school textbooks and bathroom stalls. Waltham High kids have a lot to say, and more often than we think, we express it through writing. Thought experiments, random ideas, funny sayings, an idea you had that feels uniquely yours.
Writing is a waste of time. You probably have better things to do. After all, what do you get for writing? Where’s the reward, what’s the point? At first, there isn’t a point. As a little kid in elementary school with nothing better to do, I found a big journal and started writing in it. I spent hours and hours scribbling away until I’d written pages upon pages, stories with chapters and chapters. They were absolutely terrible. Unreadable to anyone but me, they featured dozens of characters exactly the same, fever dream plots and corny lines straight out of tv I was probably watching. Middle school me didn’t get much better; I discovered google docs and started typing away some abominations that embarrass me to this day. I definitely don’t recommend doing any of this, but I bring it up because I think I did one thing right. I just got my thoughts down. Yes, they were the bizarre thoughts of a weird little 10 year old, but at the time I didn’t care. No one was reading it, I had no homework and all the time in the world.
Eventually, your rants over text and comments online and notebook scribbles evolve into your own voice, as silly as that is. Even the littlest bits of writing are powerful, even minutes a day mean something. And if you feel brave enough to share your writing, someone will be impressed. Someone will recognize you based on your own original thought, and that’s validation that can’t be compared to other forms of art. At the end of the day, writing might not be for you, and that’s ok. But I encourage you, on your own, maybe without telling anyone, give it a shot.